one thing.

lay your head on my pillow,
here you can be yourself.
no one has to know what you are feeling,
no one but me and you.
i won't tell your secrets,
they are safe with me,
just think of me as the pages in your diary.

wanted for so long.

now that i had finished,
the beauty of the dream vanished,
and breathless horror and disgust filled my heart.

oh you.

you.
something about.
you.
why you.
you've captured my attention, but you're here at the wrong time.
where are you?
you're repeating through my mind.
don't run away.
where are you?
take me.
i just want to talk to you.
you.
all the time.

hollow vessels.

the smile that kills.

"you're not allowed to cry anymore, it's cheating.
you could make me jump off a cliff if you wanted to,
just by pouting your lips and crying and saying,
sniff sniff,
can you jump off that cliff for me please?

now i understand how you got whatever you wanted when you were a kid."

s.o.s.

stella best-chef vaughan.

esseker.

dementia.

i'll take you for everything you never really had.
i lost my beat in a sea of shapes and sounds,
and I lost my mind in the color of your eyes.
bury me?
bury you!

infusion.

36-38 ATP.

ah fresh.

not being able to switch off sucks.
you can't just kick back and unwind because something is always on your mind.
is something always on everyones mind?
or are some people just totally blank?
can they just zone out and block everything from themselves?
maybe they don't exist.
maybe we were made to have active minds.
when i'm lying in bed in the early hours of the morning after thinking and thinking, theorising, solving all the problems of the world, fighting unseen battles, predicting and planning, (it's quite a never-ending circle really) i wonder if there's someone else, who right now, is thinking and doing the exact same thing as me, maybe even thinking that there is someone out there doing what they're doing.
i find solace in covincing myself there is someone who is laying awake at night... with me.

marge,

marge!
the rains are 'ere.
finally.

done and done.

indoors.

sick.
again.

apartment balcony.

i've been sleeping with this silence in my mind,
and all i see scares me.

i've been on my own here for so fucking long,
that i can't stand being around anyone.

freerice.com

my good deed for the day.
:)

haaahaha.

best combo.

check it out.

new lens!

sigma fisheye 10mm.
DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

stay on me.

i stole your soul.
you said i'd never be able to.
haha the whole world is still on my string.
it started quite young,
i learned how to stay quiet.
so i've been sleeping with this silence in my mind
and no one knows it but he saved me.

i guess i love to spend all my time up in my own brain,
because i can't believe the words coming up out of your face.