spray cans of antidotes.

it's my turn, my go.
the world is waiting for my next move.
i feel helpless.
they are watching.
that's it.
there is nothing more than this.
nothing more than me.
give me your hand, i'll show you what it is to promise.
i can only greet the visitor with one short statement.

hello, my name is distance and i really don't care if i never wake up again.

fuck off and die theory.

"i'm sick of you and your mediocrity."

cricket.

no one knows.

no one will ever know.
i hate you.
i hate you when it is pumping through your veins.
you change.
you are a monster.
salt in my wounds.
just the monster and me.
all i want is sleep.
wake up.
this is a battle. with the bottle. and you're losing it.
it's your battle not mine.
don't reach out to me, nor hold on to me for dear life.
towing me down.
you are the wrong type of anchor.
fading away into your disease, and don't you know it.
did i overhear you?

i need it to keep my head upon these shoulders, and keep the beast inside at bay.

you are undertaking in a toxic, poisonous, and fatal distraction.
you will expire.

give it up.
or give it your all.
this isn't the way you were meant to be.
this is not your moment of clarity.

realise.
it's hard to breathe when you're choking yourself.
realise.
it's hard to see through eyes misleading.

i swear we've been here before.

please. oh please pick up your feet!
you know that i can't carry you anymore.

does it feel familiar to you?
does it make you feel alive?

it's safe to say...

not sleeping.

things don't come as easy as you do and i'm running out of things to say.

striving to be seen as perfect.

drop the girl.

she’s wasted on her back dragging other boys into her lies.



the best night i've had here so far.

save your breath.

i don't like it.

click.

i took this so long ago.
and i still love it.

speakers blown.

I don't know.
I feel alive.
where is your heart?

do you listen to your ipod via artists, playlists, songs, albums, genres, or on shuffle?

you sound like a radio with the speakers blown, treble high and the bass down low.

meltdown.

today was a good day.
i didn't think about it.
not once. until i saw the photo.
i miss when it wasn't so hard just to be near you.
i miss it all.
i'm fading inside these four walls.

i cannot control anything but me. but even that is hard to do when i can barely breathe.

why did you go? i should not have to be writing this.
i should not need to ask these questions.

you should be here.

vacant hearts.

desire

1. a wish or longing

2. sexual appetite

3. a person or thing that is desired [Latin desiderare]

desire, covet, crave, want, wish.
down on my knees, i'm praying for someone to save me.

心からの願い

i'm so awake.
i'm always awake at night.

j'aime quelqu'un, j'espère qu'ils existent.

dive into imagery.

this shining star is duller than we thought.
maybe it's just me, don't hold your breath for too long.
the tide is slowly going out tonight, lets make this now or never.



i'm yours.
i cannot wait to get back.

frack.

are you on or are you off?
i'll hold your hand as if you care.

no one reads this anyway.

anchor.

i know that i've been dancing around the truth.
i know this feeling. i've felt it. i've felt it so many times.
ill. sick.
at times i'm a little bit agitated.
i won't try that again.

soulless

Adjective

1. lacking human qualities; mechanical: soulless materialism

2. (of a person) lacking in sensitivity or emotion

i just want someone to sing to sleep.

feel these words come undone.

with your arms stretched around, i feel the words release from your throat.

you think you're confused? you don't know confused. you don't know anything about confused.
i have a guilty conscience.

can i buy you a drink? you're paper thin.